Tuesday, February 23, 2010

目标

小,作文‘我的自述’-- 相信是大家自懂事以来写的第一篇杰作

里头记载了个人的短述,如家乡家人事业体形等。。其中必然有本身对未来的憧憬-目标

我嘛

志愿是当兽医,开办一家动物园,12岁以下免费入场,8岁以上附送宠物与饲料另加亲身授教领养心得

大送特送,全为教育后代爱护动物,一家一宠物,爱满人间,世界和平

2010年,今日的现实与儿时理想可算是格格不入

其中一个目标是改变了,但前进的方向仍同,热诚仍在

在未来,孩童时期目标的动物园也将会实现。。。

忆起儿时,写在我的自述里头的目标,你又实现了多少?

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路上,由于一个偶然的邂逅滋生了新目标。自觉不会错了,活至今日找寻的不过就是这一个。这,就是唯一

当我们万分努力朝目标迈进时却遭遇挫败,本身亦变得一愁不展,万灰俱灭,人间仿佛刹那间不再带有任何希望,剩下的不过是会呼吸的空皮囊。。

其实并非每每下定决心干一番的事业都能得偿所愿,偶而间隔的意外在所难免

因为一个微小不觉的差错,将所有的努力尽付诸水

皆应凡事皆讲究天时,地利,人和三个基本因素,再来就论命理

怪罪命运的不是,守株待兔的人比比皆是。殊不知运气是个应争取,并非用等待来换回的代价

错了,不过是个成长的过程,起码以后不会再重犯。人何尝不是从错误中吸取教诲? 可别让过去迷惑本身对事的决心,裹足不前。。

一个挫折,意味着一个‘逗号’,并非‘句号’,因为人生并不是明天就了结了

人该不会在这一生中只有一个目标吧? 失败了,重拾心情续往前朝下一个目标努力咯。人生何其短,以其痛心疾首逝去的过错,消耗时光,倒不如向前展望

说时易做时难,就套句心理专家常说老掉牙的废话:‘没尝试过,如何知道?

死蠢

说了等于没说

不过静思回想: 它的分别就在于,‘静坐待毙’与‘破釜沉舟’之间

有尝试过,就算后果不如期待中的回报,或遭遇挫败,至少胜于没努力争取过

要拥有,就必须先懂得失去

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忆梦回,目标在暗夜里的小巷中,展开双臂迎接游子的归来

告诉游子,他的努力没有白费,终站不远了,加油。。

虽然现今目标已非那亲悉的脸孔,但昔日的感动仍憾着他的心,剩下的路途他会否孤身续航,他却不感到孤单

因为他仍能感觉到那颗继续跳动的心

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目标

平凡,亦可以是痴人说梦,杂乱思想出来不切实际的虚拟形体

带出的影响力之大却不容置疑

有了它,每每睁开眼的日子也会变得充实,因为眼下所做的一切就是迈向它的一步

它,是个教本身努力奋斗的借口

它在你快要放弃时,提醒你仅剩下的路程不多了

就算再如何艰苦,以后所得到的成果将会弥补今日的痛

竭尽了全力,做到了本身的最好,就算在最终不能事尽如愿以偿,与理想相差悬殊,自身也将不留遗憾

数十年后,偶然回顾,也且能放声大笑

偿幸自己真的活过。。。

启程吧

*献给我的挚友,一起努力找寻生命的色彩吧 =)

: 我的志愿NO.2 = 加入他们的精彩演出! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4S1EQGgTTc) ^^v




Wednesday, February 10, 2010

外婆

走前,家公要媳妇答应他,房子是祖业,无论如何不可卖,传子不传媳,生生不息,源远流长,永世其昌。。

一个诺言,她就在那祖屋待上了一辈子

嫁后,那已成了她的家

因为家,可不只是隔在围墙与屋顶的空间,其中也包含了一段无价的联系亲情


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学历只有小三程度的外婆

虽识字不多,但中年时期她所亲身经历的辛酸经验可不比任何人少

丈夫的离去,无助,谣言的散播,低声下气求人的心情,还得忍受冷嘲热讽。。

说起故事来,外婆的遭遇真可写成传记了。。

忆起从前,国小时爱听的竟是<义勇军进行曲>,亦是中华民国的国歌

起来起来..!’

话说听起来会让人精神一振哦。。。

休学前曾当过学长,在不少体育项目中得过奖项,也是个连校长也表扬的模范生

话说曾外婆可真是大厨呢,经营餐馆的她有招牌梅菜扣肉坐镇,可谓是家乡一绝! 而迟了十几年出世的我们可没这富气了。。

外婆所烹饪的菜式却多以简单朴素为主

多年的艰辛劳苦使她不再对味蕾挑剔。。因为盘中餐,来得不易。。。

我们没怪她

多年前,外婆甚至将辛辛苦苦储蓄下来的血汗钱借给街坊,以解一时之困,虽然对方日后并不还尽,外婆总是说因以宽大为怀的心对人,才会有好的回报,凡事不因耿耿于怀做人才会乐观。。

丈夫走后,剩下的只有债务与六个孩子,么女甚至还没断奶。。。

面对如此困境,她唯有学习从未学过的手艺,独自扶养孩子们长大

她从观摩悟出了理发的基本学识

阅读报章里她自创了写非正统的汉字笔划

抄写英文字母的划法与弯曲她悟出了‘abc’

各方受教使她从简单针线学会了缝衣织衫

。。。。。。。。。。。。<裁缝--养活一家六口的活计之一>。。。。。。。。。。。



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。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。<她的理发剪刀>。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

外婆的教育程度不高,所以其他孩子的学业还得靠长女的教导,至于她就全力负责为家挣活

营业了一天的理发店打详后,夜深时底楼的缝衣机仍在操作,在赶顾客的衣服订单。。外婆的工作就像似永无止境,心里挂念的也不过是家人的温饱

她就从不为自己着想。。

她的一生,除了养活孩子们,就是学习,不断上进的往脑灌注知识

后来竟加入女媳们讨论政治的话题里。。。

母亲的付出,孩子们也懂得争气

长女嫁去了狮城,现已是一家大型理发院的执牌者

次子升学念了科技工程,现任工厂科技主管

三女嫁了银行经理,全职家庭主妇

四女到英国升学,嫁后与丈夫联手共创业,现一工厂副经理

五女儿现于狮城乌节路开办了一家理发店

性格刚强的么女远嫁于李氏后,育有二男一女,次子姓李名延耀

过年时,外婆给的扁平红包封总有奇怪的凸状

Rm 10.10

寓意有出头,给年轻一代的血脉,愿有生之年能出人头地之意。。

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晚年,

纵使在健康缺佳的状况下,她也不愿在外逗留得太久,只愿回去祖屋度过晚年

纵使儿女们不断的要求

奔波劳苦了一辈子,她也不习惯坐享儿女们的成果,在剩下的岁月理发店的灯仍然亮着,照着了无人迹的家乡街道

家乡仍在,人却已不复返,长大了的孩子已寻梦去了,她的心愿也已达成

现在她只想履行当年所许下的诺言

将祖屋焕然一新,有了根据地也只希望有一天后代会旧地重游,因为最能慰藉外婆的,不过是能亲眼看到子孙后代的繁荣昌盛,并拥有一个美好完整的家

因为家,就是一切

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外婆走了

她最后的安息地位于家乡对岸的岛上,与她一生所爱的丈夫沉睡在一起,仰望着无际的南中国海

虽不能再亲耳聆听她的过去与教诲,但她的故事仍会持续着

一个母亲彻夜不眠的在缝衣机工作的情景仍豫在

而她当年的努力,也将不会白费。。

你是我们大家的起点

耀



Thursday, February 4, 2010

50天-终结篇

留在沙滩上的脚印

被后来的潮水淹没了

浪褪时,只剩下依稀可见的淡薄纹路

纵使不再带任何意义,但却道出了某个行人所走过的路
回忆。始终仍是个让心灵成长的过程,纵使已成过去式

因为有了过去,将来才能以被塑造。。。
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(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fNIHzn40mjg)

和你也许不会再相拥

大概你的体重 会抱我造梦

从前为了不想失约 连病都不敢痛

到哪一天 才回想起 我蠢

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和你也许不会再通宵坐到咖啡酸了 喝也喝不掉

从前为你舍得无聊 宁愿休息不要

谈论连场大雨你窗台漏水 不得了

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从来未爱你 绵绵

可惜我爱怀念 尤其是代我伤心的唱片

从来未爱你 但永远为任何人奉献

从没细心数清楚 一个夏雨天

一次愉快的睡眠 断多少发线

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和你也许不会再拥抱 待你我都苍老

散半里的步 前尘就似轻于鸿毛

提及心底苦恼 如像自言自语说他人是非 多么好

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从来未爱你 绵绵

可惜我爱怀念 尤其是代我伤心的唱片

从来未爱你 但永远为任何人奉献

从来没细心数清楚 一个夏雨天

一次愉快的睡眠 断多少发线

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从来未爱你 只喜爱跟一颗心血战

亦怀念那些吸不透的香烟

从来未爱你 只喜爱共万人迷遇见

从来没细心数清楚 一个夏雨天

一次愉快的入眠 断多少发线。。

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*一首引入追忆,与带出历史的作品。

"歌。文采名句的结晶品,默默的重述说那已渐被时光侵蚀的曾经

简略,却足以道尽心境。"

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耀

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Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Tears of Females (since creation until present day)

-When God create Human, He use one rib bone of the first man(Adam) to create the first woman(Eve), Hence born the theory men gave birth to women(reverse process of child birth)

-Myth: Women are cursed. According to mythology, Eve ate the forbidden fruit, God gets angry and banishes His creation from Eden garden. From that day on, human lives on themselves.

-History: Ancient time Chinese (even until now), most of them despise females. Man can have as much wives as he wants, women are treating as object, can be trade, and most fathers are so willingly to sell their daughters. No women could go to school, women with knowledge will never get marry, and they can’t even read books. Women are limits in house, only. After gets married, father always pray for a son, the one that carry family name to the next generation. But if really unfortunate gets a daughter…you can simply abandon the child, no one would ever blame you, because everyone’s doing the same. Female are consider “ying”, a side of Fong-Shui that attract bad things, if your family have more females than males, blame your daughters if you gets sick or bad lucks. Plus, Chinese emperor has one queen and 3000 wives! Believe it! Every year fresh beauties from around the country being send to palace, never knowing their fate…Some beauties never seen the emperor in their life time, they just stay in the palace(forever), gets old and die without a proper funeral. Imagine that, the only entertainment you get is lesbian sex and chess and fly kite, all in the palace until the day you die…

-Since creation: Being are judge by their strength, not knowledge or whatever…We knows men are stronger, thanks to testosterone, so those without it, obey. Ever since then, men become the one that write laws, women obey, must. Hence when go through history, we can see most culture and religious despise women’s right, since no one ever protests (who ever dares), it stays until now. Sadly, nowadays most people still stick to those conservative crappy laws, even some women…

-Mothers: one time intercourse, has pain of labour, lost appetite, vomit almost every time after meals, suffer gastric pain for the whole 9 months, in the end process still have to endure the ultimate suffering for almost 40 minute—then only a child is born. After birth, mother lactate her very own child and take care of everything, from clothing to the bed, mother never rest…from a baby child until the boy turns to man, mother never stops worry and always be there when her child is in trouble. Still, some child never appreciates…comes home at late night, scholarship reach rock bottom and lost virginity before 16th birthday, breaks mother’s very own heart…at worst, if husband doesn’t understand, she gets all the blame for all the cause…contribute without asking for return, that’s a mother.

-Fact: Who discover DNA? We’ll say Watson and Crick. In fact the one that first discover DNA is a woman scientist name Rosalind Franklin…why no one ever cares? You know the answer. Rosalind dies of broken heart, only until recent year science world give the glory to her.

-In present day: crime rate rise way faster than Carbon dioxide concentration. Women gets rape, rob, abuse, kill every single minute. According to research, in one minute more than 200 women falls victim to crime and this number doesn’t include most 3rd world countries…An unnamed religious, state a law if women gets rape, she can sue the attacker, but she needs at least 4 witness! Let me ask you, would you rape a victim in front of 4 people? That is plain bull-shit and out-of-the-world-alien-crap! Who ever comes up with that idea are really a no-brainer.

-Nation’s Crisis: Now talk about the country I’m from. Year 2007, when a hell lot of shit-happen in my country, for instance: Two politicians openly discuss about women period cycle without feeling ashamed, and don’t even felt sorry when this news broke out! Until the prime put pressure then they say sorry in front the camera but still don’t mention the victim name, thinking themselves very high pride and stuff, people (I mean, trash or debris of society) like these, which don’t respect women, won’t respect their mother and sister as well. Females government workers, no matter what religious or race, now are getting pressure from the top, urging them to cover their so-called private part(hair), now the whole nation females police enforcer already doing that, in future no surprise it will reach others post like teachers. Foreign celebrities like Gwen being warn not to be ‘bitchy’, Pussycat Dolls being fine for ‘bringing bad influences to the nation youth’, Linkin Park gets warning to ‘be good’, Beyonce are force to wear the outfit that only approved by our country (damn it, she said she rather go Jakarta of Indonesia, and this really shame news reach MTV and stuff and its all over internet blogs). Hell! They even warn Justin Timberlake not to be ‘sexy’! This is sooooooo stupid! No kissing in the public (fine), but even not in the airport! Foreign tourist being fine for embracing each other in the airport, local police broke into tourist’s hotel suite and urges the lady to ‘cover herself’, while the husband are being charge ‘doing dirty stuff’, for God sake, they are husband and wives! Even Middle East are more open minded than this country! Sincerely, this country now is really gaining its fame for being Ultra conservative, check out CNN or Times you’ll know (even Indonesia news critic about Gwen’s problem in this country!). Female lives on this soil are now slowly losing their right, soon they gonna urge you to cover your own toe…you never know.

-European’s folklore: Long time ago Human all lives in a small town, a town without worry, sickness or any misfortune. God left a box in the middle of the town after He creates human, a secret box, and He warn everyone not to open it. A little girl name Pandora can’t control her curiosity, she decide just to take a peek into the box, suddenly all hell break loose…bad things came out from the box, sickness, depression, hatred and all filled the town, peoples changed since then, all off them slowly leaves town and Pandora are being despise for causing this great destruction. Hence, women are said to be the root of all problems.

-Words: Women that kept to themselves or act cool are call ‘bitch’, those that loosen a bit are ‘sluts’, independent women are women that ‘out of track’, didn’t obey husband or folks words are ‘useless’, those married to rich dudes are ‘gold digger’, urge for another time after having sex are ‘whore’…everything women do or done, we guys name them something. Independent or single girl can just dirt off their shoulder, those married have to suffer husband’s cruel words, gets beaten and all.

-Dark Age: When the disease Black Death runs free in Europe, no cure are found and death troll reach a catastrophic state, that time there aren’t any doctor, people depends on witch doctor and home remedies, ritual of all kind occurs throughout the continent…when all hope seem lost, church and angry mobs turns and lay their anger on witchcraft. Witchcraft exists since civilization, but in the eye of church, they are considers as those that brings misfortune and worse: the Black Death disease…throughout Europe, witch doctors and women that suspect to practice witchcraft are burn to death, and all kind of torturing like crucified, water torture (the cruelest I ever knows) and all. The angry mob goes so far that even young women and cats get massacred. Until everything’s over, witchcraft no longer exist in Europe and the death troll cause by human being almost equal the main cause… (Joan of Arc, die in accuse of being a witch during the battle of British and French)

-Sexual drive: Hell lot of men nowadays still doesn’t know about girls. During sexual intercourse, men usually insert his organ WAY freakin early, they never know about foreplay, and they don’t care. For women, they are different, they need to be stimulate for a period of time to get ‘ready’, for vagina lining to produce juice for intercourse later on. For men they just pick their penis and stroke and its ready, so they think girl be the same. After the first few minute of suffering (without readiness of the wife), wife finally gets ready for intercourse, when they ask for another time (after male party ejaculated), they gets all the blame for being ‘bitchy’, ‘sluty’, ‘whore’ and all (fact: if the wife ain’t ready, they can’t feel anything but pain and suffering even there’s a 8 inch penis between their legs).Blaming them for having strong sex drive can never satisfied and all the fuss. One thing makes me really piss is that: nowadays a lot of people really holding the idea of ‘nowadays female sexual drives are getting stronger’, they don’t search the solution and blame the females, a clear example of male domination. Well, after all who would really willing to sacrificed 10 minute of their life time dedicate to foreplay, while you can just simply insert your penis and left your wife scream for life(ancient civilization like Greek and Egypt and even Indians knows about foreplay, read your history books!).One sad thing is: this matter you can never consult your wife or GF, because they love you, they just don’t want you to feel disappointed or depress and stuff, they are willing to sacrifice. For most women, if the other part of their life felt happy and satisfied, they will, too.

-Closing: Women are not from Venus, Man ain’t from Mars too, we both exist since creation, a lot of thing we don’t have in common, so we should learn to tolerate, understand, believe and love each other. When go through history, we can see that men made too many mistake, too many until I can’t really type it all down. Now, we should learn our mistake and respect them, make them believe we are there for them, like they always doing to us…when seconds to world’s end, you can hold her hand and said “we are going back to Eden, and I’ll find you”, and she’s looking into your eyes, believing it’s true…

*This article is dedicated to all the women, mothers and those still suffering under the fist of male domination, and for those deceased. Tomorrow would be better, we believe.

**Re-edit of previous post. original publication date: 01.01.2008 3.00am

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